12:57 AM
I managed to get through the boyfriend today and I was on the brink of tearing up but I didn't want him to worry about me so much so I forced myself to sound ok.

He was so romantic. I don't know why I just said but he was so assuring and loving. Maybe I miss him so much. This period in my life has never been so critical. Sometimes I wonder what will happen if I decided to pursue my studies abroad . We've talked about it before and both of us think it'll be ok. BUUUT, this 26 days is really a lifechanging experience and DECISION. (MCM Survivor lar)

I cannot see myself surviving life miles away from my family and Atifah(if we go to seperate countries), and to even think that without Zasir in the picture, is SICK.

Aiyo, donno why I feel so mushed up. People will perceive it as being shallowminded but seriously, I told my aunty before cuz she asked me whether I see myself raising a family abroad.... I believe only love will keep ppl together.

Doesn't matter what love la. Love from your family, inlaws, friend, partners or children.

But on a personal level, I salute my aunty for being able to raise her family all over the world, across the continents, but for myself, I see myself in Singapore (preferable east or central area) in a small 4 room cosy flat, furnished country style with a bit of contemporary touch and then running a very successful business and A'tifah as my neighbour and the boyfriend who will be my future husband......

in a fireman suit!!!!!

WOOOHOOO.HOTness la beb (as always said by A'tifah and Qamar but in Qamar's case, she prefers the policeman)

Actually, don't care what he works as, as long as he's able to support me. But if given more or less, than we still need to be thankful to God la.


Anyway, I'm already planning my schedule when I arrive in Spore on Oct 14. And the next 9 days will be madness. Running around.